Monday, November 18, 2013

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11.01.13 (Friday night) - The Lincoln Memorial at night. The kids acted like it was a playground (for better or worse).

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11.01.13 (Friday afternoon) - Allie and I stayed up drinking until 3 am and were too tired for the National Mall in the morning, but we did make it to Union Market in the afternoon. Middle Eastern food makes me happy.

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10.31.13 (Thursday night) - Halloween at the White House, then neighborhood trick or treating.

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10.31.13 (Thursday afternoon) - Halloween parade. And artist, a firefighter, and the girl from Harry Potter.

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10.30.13 (Wednesday afternoon) - Colonial Williamsburg, Day 2.

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10.30.13 (Wednesday morning) - A baby and an ipad, P's happy.

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10.29.13 (Tuesday) - Colonial Williamsburg, Day 1.

Thursday, November 7, 2013

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10.28.13 (Monday afternoon) - Last soccer practice, such a great team.

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10.19.13 (Saturday morning) - Our first yard sale and possibly our last. Apparently our old stuff isn't as awesome as we wanted to believe.

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10.18.13 (Friday afternoon) - Warhol's Silver Clouds at the Artisphere.

Wednesday, November 6, 2013

"I stand here ironing, and what you asked me moves tormented back and forth with the iron.

“I wish you would manage the time to come in and talk with me about your daughter.  I’m sure you can help me understand her.  She’s a youngster who needs help and whom I’m deeply interested in helping.”

“Who needs help. . . Even if I came, what good would it do?  You think because I am her mother I have a key, or that in some way you could use me as a key?  She has lived for nineteen years.  There is all that life that has happened outside of me, beyond me.

And when is there time to remember, to sift, to weigh, to estimate, to total?  I will start and there will be an interruption and I will have to gather it all together again.  Or I will become engulfed with all I did or did not do, with what should have been and what cannot be helped.

. . . .

In this and other ways she leaves her seal, I would say aloud.  And startle at my saying it.  What do I mean?  What did I start to gather together, to try and make coherent?  I was at the terrible, growing years.  War years.  I do not remember them well.  I was working, there were four smaller ones now, there was not time for her.  She had to help be a mother, and housekeeper, and shopper.  She had to set her seal.  Mornings of crisis and near hysteria trying to get lunches packed, hair combed, coats and shoes found, everyone to school or Child Care on time, the baby ready for transportation.  And always the paper scribbled on by a smaller one, the book looked at by Susan then mislaid, the homework not done.  Running out to that huge school where she was one, she was lost, she was a drop; suffering over the unpreparedness, stammering and unsure in her classes.

. . . .

She is so lovely.  Why did you want to come up at all?  Why were you concerned?  She will find her way.

She starts up the stairs to bed.  "Don't get me up with the rest in the morning."  "But I thought you were having midterms."  "Oh, those," she comes back in, kisses me, and says quite lightly, "in a couple of years when we'll all be atom-dead they won't matter a bit."

She has said it before.  She believes it.  But because I have been dredging the past, and all that compounds a human being is so heavy and meaningful in me, I cannot endure it tonight.

I will never total it all.  I will never come to say: She was a child seldom smiled at.  Her father left me before she was a year old.  I had to work her first six years when there was work, or I sent her home and to his relatives.  There were tears she had care she hated.  She was dark and thin and foreign-looking in a world where the prestige went to blondness and curly hair and dimples, she was slow where glibness was prized.  She was a child of anxious, not proud, love.  We were poor and could not afford for her the soil of easy growth.  I was a young mother, I was a distracted mother.  There were other children pushing up, demanding.  Her younger sister seemed all that she was not.  There were years she did not want me to touch her.  She kept too much in herself, her life was such she had to keep too much in herself.  My wisdom came too late.  She has much to her and probably little will come of it.  She is a child of her age, of depression, of war, of fear.

Let her be.  So all that is in her will not bloom - but in how many does it?  There is still enough left to live by.  Only help her to know - help make it so there is cause for her to know - that she is more than this dress on the ironing board, helpless before the iron."

- Tillie Olsen, I Stand Here Ironing